In Honor of My Mom

That deep wound began
when I was only 18

After my mother’s breast cancer diagnosis and subsequent treatments, my father walked into my room one day and handed me a manila envelope that was filled with all kinds of alternative treatments for cancer … With tears in his eyes, he said to me, “I think there’s something in here that can help your mother.” I tried and tried to read the research, and each time my eyes glazed over, it was just too far over my head. I was the English major, not the science girl. I was the girl that was going to write and create … not be involved in science… or so I thought.

While researching all of this

I had an opportunity to revisit that deep wound of mine … Now that I was finally capable of understanding all of this, I could look at my mother’s diagnosis and the emotional trauma that very well may have led to her disease … You see, according to the experts, cancer of the left breast generally stems from an emotional conflict with one’s mother. They say the trauma generally occurs approximately 18 months to two years prior to initial diagnosis. So thinking back to when I was 16, I remembered this was when my mother found out through a very bizarre series of events that she was nearly illegitimate … that her parents had married only six short weeks before she was born. She was devastated by this news … her heart was broken. She felt unloved and unwanted and was absolutely sure that the very things she had believed her entire life … now seemed ever so true.

While I can’t tell you for certain that this trauma created my mother’s disease … What I can tell you is there’s a reason my dad put that folder on my desk when I was 18 … and there’s a reason that God keeps putting this information in front of me … there’s a reason that I have friends who are doctors in both the traditional and holistic medical field who are not only listening, they are paying attention to this research. They are realizing it’s time to do things differently.